Pull me

I am blogging again. I can't bed. Once I close my eyes my brain juz cannot stop thinking. I want to rest but I juz cant. Who can I share with ? Where is all my closest friends ? How I wish I cn get into relationship to be loved by someone. Let me be the selfish one cause I m tired of loving someone. Suddenly I feel like gg for a trip all by myself but I dont have the courage to travel alone. I am v sian, super sian. Wht happened to me !!!! Where am I now?????? Pull me out..........................................................................................................